Where things started to feel wrong.......

 Hi there!

It has been what, 7 to 8 months since my last 'fresh start' post? haha! But here I am, again. Not going anywhere, just thought maybe the year 2023, was when I went through my mid-life crisis....

This is the year when I realized, the things that we love might not be the best for us. I have been praying, or subconsciously aiming to be working in one of the established Audit Firm since I was 19 years old. Eventually,  I got in at the age of 28. It was a dream came true, life goals, and can also say the peak of my dream.

2nd year, when the reality and challenges hit me hard. The things that you dream of, might not be the best thing for you. or maybe just, it does not suit my way of working or do things. where you are 1000% independent, do everything on your own, your superior are too busy with their portfolios to even check on you and guide you. Being ignored on emails, teams chat, and eventually, saying that you are not meeting your KPI since they are unaware of what you have done or working on. What they know is, everything is ready for them to report, submit and present to the bosses. But they never care who did the preparation.

I don't think I can grow with this kind of environment. These are just the normal situations in corporate world where people are just saving their own asses! I have lost my passion due to this kinds of people. As far as I remember, never really received any proper 'Thank You' or proper appreciation from the team. I know, we do have annual dinner, annual team dinner, annual secret santa events and all where it were supposed to show appreciation to the employees and team. But to be honest, the one thing that the staff really need is the genuine appreciation from the managers and bosses. Nothing else really matters or can keep us sane to stay in the toxicity of the environment.

Phew!! What a relieffffff after saying all those things. Been keeping all those things to myself since FOREVER! hahaha! 

I think its enough for now, promise next posting will be a happier ones! hehe

Toodles!